I ended up spending that afternoon in the university
library, using one of the library computers. I’m a Mac person and the only
computers available were Windows; I didn’t know how to use the computer and it
was extremely frustrating. On top of that, I’ll admit I’m kind of a
germaphobe—all I could think of was how many unwashed hands had probably
touched the very same keyboard and mouse I was now using. Gross. By the end of
four hours of that, I was about ready to cry.
As I left the library, I offered up a silent prayer: help
me to know that things will be all right. I
turned and walked out of the west exit of the library, and was immediately
astonished by the most beautiful sunset I had ever seen.
This is for you, I
heard in my mind, a message from the Holy Ghost. And then I really did cry,
because I knew that God was aware of my situation, and my desperation, and that
He loved me. I felt His love so strongly, and I knew in that moment that the
sunset really was just for me. It was for everyone else in the world, too, you
know, but in that moment, it felt like God has just sent me my own personal
love letter. I knew that I was on His mind.
I think of that experience often now—every time I immerse
myself in the beauties of nature, or every time I see a particularly
spectacular sunset. Sometimes I see one of those beautiful sunsets and I wonder
whom it’s for—whom Heavenly Father is trying to communicate with through the
wonders of the natural world.
I know that God loves us each personally, and that He is
deeply aware of all of our trials and concerns. A broken laptop is not such a
big deal, when you compare it to things like war and devastating poverty. But
it was a big deal to me that day, and God knew it and He understood and sent me
a message of His love.
God loves you, too.
Romans 8:37-39: No, in all these things we are more than
conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life,
nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor
height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate
us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
How have you felt God’s love in your life lately?